speaking of raw and melancholy…
song of the moment
black orchid
by blue october
have you ever been so lonely
there’s no one there to hold?
just pull me in or disown me
and then climb inside
my arms are open wide
have a look inside
it is not that i am scared to learn
just why i'm empty inside
just hold my hand and show some concern
if i live or die
my eyes are open wide
help me look inside
singin…
i hear the water drip from the faucet
it's sweetly falling in tune, who knew
i'm gently closing the closet
i fall to the floor
and crawl to my room
the thought of ending it soon...
just let me sleep in my room
hear me cry!
cry!
cry!
i hear a knock at the front door
don't come in!
i try to look at you
but i can't stop shaking
leave me alone, just go away
mother i'm so scared
i’m so scared
an empty bed but all of my sheets are gone
they're wrapped around me and you
all is quiet but the drop of my gun
cause want to belong...
to someone...
but maybe life's not for everyone
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I used to put this on repeat on my ipod, and just sit in my car listening with my eyes closed.
Justin (lead singer) has this way of crawling inside my head and saying everything I feel but can’t express. It’s almost creepy. The first time I heard Hate Me on the radio I thought it was about me (yes, I am that egocentric - plus I had a rather unstable and obsessive ex who would be the type to go so far as to put a song on the radio), until it mentioned blue eyes. I don’t have blue eyes. I’ve had blue hair, but not blue eyes.
I find their music comforting. I’m not the only one who feels these things. Listening to them, for me, is like a way of commiserating without actually having to deal with anybody. I don’t really like talking to people about how I feel. Mostly cuz I don’t really like people, but also I think no one will understand. Sometimes its more therapeutic to just sit in my room, listen to music and cry.
If you ever need good crying music, these guys usually do the trick.
I will undoubtedly be posting more songs by them, but this, being my favorite, had to come first.
If the links don’t work, pat them on the head and try again. If they still don’t work, let me know.
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